Still breathing.....thank heavens

Noah has not had another episode since we came home on Sunday. He has been fine. Mommy is a nervous reck but that is to be expected- I guess. Took him to his follow-up appt on Thursday and the doctors are going to try to get me a stat monitor that I can hook up to him in the car and at night while he is sleeping. Crossing my fingers. They said he looked great and that as long as he didnt have another episode waiting to see the neurologist would be fine for the 7 days that they scheduled his appt. If he had another episode the doctors would be calling the neurologist office. He does have another ear infection!!! Surprise! Surprise!!! So we had to add another medicine to the long list.
We took him swimming on Wednesday to the inside pool here in Waterboro. He actually did great! I thought he might now like it because he likes his baths very warm. This was his first time swimming. Well he lasted about 25 minutes in the pool. Launa his physical therapist came to do PT in the pool. When we first got him in he started fussing but then he started talking and smiling and then he got fussy and started shivering....I forgot my camera, so I cant post pictures. But I will bring it next time.
I was a little upset yesterday. For a long time now I have been saying "no more babies." I was to afraid that what happened to Noah would happen again if I tried to have more babies. Well finally we go to Boston and the doctor tells me to get Genetic testing before more children. Erik and I talk about it and decide that I will get tested and down the line (no where close to this year) if the testing comes back fine we MIGHT try. So I can experience all the things Im not going to be able to. And if the test comes back more than 35% chance it would happen again then I would get my tubes tied. So I finally get the nerve to call Genetics so I can Get these tests done and they tell me they have NOTHING to test me for because Noah has passed all his genetic testing so far and without a reason for him, there are no tests for me to take. She knows it will be hard to get pregnant not knowing but basically "oh well." So needless to say Im back at square one and I dont know if I honestly can have another child not having any reassurance...... I just dont know but I have a while to think about it. Im just frustrated.
Well thats it for now...gotta go get ready for work. Everything is ok right now. I'll keep everyone posted.